day 30: let whoever think whatever

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today i held a little chinese new year dumpling wrapping party and was playing paranoia with my friends antonia and emma. according to wiki how, "Paranoia is a party game where you ask saucy questions about your friends. You're not supposed to let them know what the question is. Instead, answer with their name to make them paranoid." we played like this, but just told each other, not anyone who wasn't with us.

now that i'm thinking about it, this is actually a horrible game because i don't really like to talk about people behind their backs, but i didn't think that much of it in the moment.

this reminded me not to think so much about what other think. i've mentioned countless times on this blog that you should always remember that people are always going to have opinions about you and you have to accept that they aren't always going to be good things.

if you let others dictate who you are and essentially manipulate you into someone who you actually aren't (i hope this makes sense), you won't be happy.

basically what i'm trying to say is to BE YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF!!!!! 

people want to know you. they don't want to know some fake version of you, so stop letting other's opinions affect you so much. i truly know how hard it is, but once you try to stop caring as much, i guarantee you will become SO much happier.

for example, i wanted to decorate my phone case with jewels and one of my friends said it would be tacky and what-not, but i didn't let that stop me. i did it and literally the first day i wore it on my phone i got at least 5 compliments about it and i've been obsessed with it ever since. 

(you can watch me make it here!!)

i wasn't embarrassed that ONE person said it would look tacky. i did what i wanted and i got an even better outcome than i could have imagined. what i'm trying to say with all this is to be yourself. don't try so hard to be a people pleaser, because no everyone will be pleased with the same things. 

live your life as YOU want to. take the reins and don't have any regrets (read day 16, which is about regrets here!!). like manolo in the book of life, WRITE YOUR OWN STORY!!! someone i knew once said something along the lines of, "i'd rather die without regrets than live regretting every moment."

have a fantastic evening and i'll catch you on the next one!!!

don't wish for it, work for it.